You know when your having "one of those days"
well I have been having a lot of them.
Lately I have been feeling super busy and just plain overwhelmed with life.
I keep trying to cut back (although that's super hard for me) and to take it easy as I try to pinpoint what exactly is making me feel like I'm constantly trying to keep my head above water, and above the stack of dishes and the mountains of laundry.
And then it dawned on me.
I have 4 kids.
Chaos is my new normal.
For a while, maybe forever, I will always be counting heads when I am out in public
and I will often be searching for at least one kid who is missing from the count.
Lunch dates will never be quiet.
Actually life in general, before bedtime, will never be quiet.
Trips to Target will not be relaxing.
The dishwasher and laundry baskets will always be full
and my floors will always be dirty.
And that's ok.
I love these little years and all that they bring
but they are hard and exhausting.
Anyone who says they are not is lying.
Or only has one kid. Who is grown.
I read this quote the other day and felt like it perfectly summed up my life right now
"There's a very fine line between enjoying the chaos and barely surviving. Actually, there's no line at all. It's all mixed up together. That 'fine line' thing is a lie."
I'm praying that the Lord would help me to find joy in the craziness, soak up these little years and all the cuddles that come with them, give me extra grace during the hard days, and help me to be the Momma He wants me to be.
Because even though motherhood is hard, it is good.
Very very good.
We get to nurture these sweet (and spicy) little spirits entrusted to us and help grow them and shape them into the people they were created to be.
What a big, exciting, sometimes overwhelming, rewarding, challenging task.