Tuesday, November 15, 2011

I have a problem

I have a major "me" problem.
I'm often stuck in "Kristin Land" or even the "Sellars' family bubble"
where all I can think about are my needs (or wants) and my families concerns.
It's been a problem for well...forever, but it has really showed it's ugly head since I have had kids.
Because if it were up to me I would almost always put myself first.
And every time I get woken up at 3:00 in the morning (or let's be honest even 5:00 in the morning) or don't get to eat my food until it's cold (which is more often than not these days) I realize my "me" problem.

And then I watch something like this or this and get brought back to reality.
Suddenly figuring out how I'm going to sew a million bibs for my boutique on Saturday or deciding what I'm going to buy my kids for Christmas this year doesn't seem so important.
Life. isn't. all. about. me.
or my family.
It's all about Jesus.

Jesus ransomed me from death and hell,
adopted me as His own, sent the Holy Spirit to dwell inside me
and promises eternal life to me (and all those who repent and believe in Him!).
He alone is worthy of this little life.
And because He is so so good and gracious and merciful to me
all I want to do is live it for Him.

And yet I forget.
The "me" monster rears it's ugly head and I have to remind myself of the truth again and again and again.
It's such a constant battle, but one that's so worth the fight
because life is about so much more than just me.


Krulls in Haiti said...

Oh girl... don't we all?! It is a daily struggle to cut out the selfishness and live the life that God planned for me, to glorify HIM! Being aware is the first step, right?

Pink Daisys Blog Spot said...

We all have the "me" issue all the time.. It's normal and you are so now alone! It's nice to hear someone talk about it.. Seems like we spend too much time not being ourselves on our blogs sometimes..Trust "me" I get that way too :) Hang in there, you will get done what you need too and it will all work out.. :)